I made a commitment to God about 6 months ago to do my best to follow him to the best of my ability no matter what. Since that day my business has tanked, dont have the right skills/degrees to find something better and even getting a job is tough when you cant afford to go back and forth, all my so called friends have gone, I am homeless, slept in my vehicle cant tell you how many times, even that is up for repo now, my health has gotten horribly bad, lost nearly 70 lbs from lack of food/nutrition (wasnt overweight to begin with but now look like an aids vitim) Need to see a doctor badly because of stomach problems and dentist because of absessed tooth I have been fighting. Literally God has taken/allowed everything from me (never cared much about material) since that commitment. I have tried and tried to keep trusting Him and keep my faith, but it seems that daily things get worse and worse and everything I touch turns to garbage and everything I try ends in failure. I have trusted God from the depths of my heart and have always believed he would turn things around, but starting to feel like I am not one of his chosen and/or being punished for making that commitment. I truly hate praying for money, I feel like one of those people we all know that only calls when they want something, but find myself asking God for His help but shortly after something else shows up and brings more disaster. I am quickly losing all hope/faith and truly dont know what to do, ask, or pray anymore.

God please help this so that theyre problem works out and that they over come this. please give them strength in theyre time of need. Amen

God wants us to depend upon Him solely for everything in life, whether it be for comfort or just about anything else. He wants to be everything to us and that is why we are commanded to love Him with all our heart, soul, mind, and spirit. So, don't feel bad for asking for money. "Ask and ye shall receive..." Matt. 7:7. The Lord wants you to tell Him your needs and He understands the storm that you're going through. I would also recommend reading about the storm that Jesus went through with the disciples, where He accused them of having such little faith and when He calmed the storm. I am not God and therefore, I couldn't tell you exactly the reason for all of the hardship in your life. Perhaps it is to test your faith and to better prepare you so that you can follow God more fully and to increase your faith. Your faith is sometimes all you have to hold on to. Just remember the verse in Psalms that No believe is left begging bread. I know that you have said you've been homeless, but the Lord will find a way to provide for you. Just keep praying to Him, seek His guidance and there will be a way.

Be strong in the Lord.
Sincerely,

Lost Love

I greatly appreciate your replies, the idea that you would take time to read my post and say a prayer for me says alot about you and your character. I know of the verses you are refering to and have clung to them with all my might. My problem lately is that reading them, or other promises about provision from the bible (along with hearing/reading testimonies from others) hurt more than it helps. Its kind of like being invited to a dinner; You are promised this dinner where you and others can sit and enjoy this meal that you have been dying to eat. You are told of what type of food will be served, what type of beverages, how great dessert will be. You fight with all your might and do whatever it takes to get there only to be told to stand outside and watch others through the window enjoy the dinner. At first you are envious of those enjoying the meal, but soon its turns to sadness and undescribable hurt because all along the way to that dinner you put all your trust and hope into the one serving it.

Father, lead this young man to the book of Job and let him consider this good and Godly man who despite terrible losses refused to ever stray from his faith in you and in your plan for his life. Through the loss of children and possessions and health and everything that had defined his life in the physical world he chose to remain loving of your name and to trust you. Father while his trials were great, his restoration was greater in that you gave him back all that the enemy had stolen 7 fold. I pray that you would strengthen Dave's faith. I pray that you would do the same for him as you did for Job. I pray that you would show him in a way that he cannot help but receive and understand that despite the pain, despite the trials that you love him and have a plan for his life. Lead him along your path Father...help him to stand while under this tremendous weight...and in your love and mercy lift the burden that he carries and provide for him and sustain him now and forever...In Jesus name...Amen!