I am in a stait because of my past life of mastubation even when I have become a christain. My wife is a popular figure in the church internationally and my children are waiting on God to know the will of God in marrtiage and now the scandal came in great proportion that I reallise it is God anger. I had wanted a broken heart to come unto God but tears is not coming. Pray for me that God will be merciful and give me a restoration to become a useful vessel to Him after all this and be merciful on my family members.