I have not been in the best of spirits all week because I am going through something and was wanting to ask you to help me pray.

Here it is: my husband Joe and I have just been married for 3 yr. and I am deeply in love with him like I have never been with any other man, even my kids dad and I was married to him for 20 yr. any way... I told him when we first married that I would never give him a divorce no matter what ever happened, He says he loves me and wants to be with me but in the last month he has just a few days befor Christmas he had a run in with a nieghbor/friend and he came home and said I got to go for a ride, and I said I want to go and then hesaid no, I want to be alone (that was at 2 pm and I tryed calling him on his cell after he had been gone for a couple
hr. but he did not answer it, he ended up getting home about 9 pm that night. Then he was gone 1 day when I got up, wich was about 11 am (last wed.) he was not working, and he did not get home till 9 am Thursday and when I asked where he had been, he said I was afriend and they would not let me drive home, so I said, you were drinking and he said yes, but he don't really drink but every once in a blue moon and then he drinks very little. Then this past Sat. we needed a few grocery's and he did not want to go so I said I would but then when I get ready to go out the door, I asked for the cell phone (now I say it is his cause he uses it and pays for the min. on it (but I bought it when I was babysitting, and it is reg. to me) but I have no income so he uses it. any way
I told him that I wanted the phone in case of an emergency and he screamed and got angery and said your only going 10 mile and so finialy insted of letting me take it he then decided to go with me. Well then we went to eat after the store and just befor that he stoped at a gas station to use the restroom and was in there for a bit (I checked the phone latter and found that he had made a call while in the restroom) I figured that is why he did not want me to have the phone. Then Sunday while we were in church he got a phone call I think it was the same person, yes I think he is having an afair.
when I ask him if there is any one else or tell him I am afraid of him leaving me then he just says, who would want me, I can not satisfy a women, because i think I told you he has ED. and all the time we have been married he has always said that the meds. you can get cost too much, $10 a pill, and now he made a docter apt. for some ****

Now he told me a couple weeks ago that he wanted us to get a divorce (due to money trouble) so I would get my SSI sooner (wich I am trying for as I have bad knee's) and sence Me being married, the amount I get a mon. will be based on his income and we can not get food stamps nor I get medicaid, but if we are not married then I will get more income a mon. if I get my SSI and I can get stamps and medicaid. And then he wants us to still live together but the SS. officer, and the food stap people will not know, nor dose he want anyone one other then those people to know that we are evern divorced. So he wants me to lie, and to be deceatfull, and live together/sleep together and be divorced. I have talked to my paster and he hust said just pray! I am not going to do any of this thoe but he is still pushing the isue, and thinks I am, cause I don't argue the point any more, so not to make him angery. But he said if you don't want to do it then I am going to leave! Please Pray! I am hurtting cause I love him so and I want to make God happy.