I praise You and thank You Lord that now I believe I truly know what I will study. Lord, I was thinking of transferring to another college because I thought that may be what YOU wanted.AND because it is the ATMOSPHERE I love, in addition to the college atmosphere I love-though NOT the winter!!!!! I'm not much of a city dweller. TOO MUCH conglomeration!!!!! and busyness. I am angry about the confusion in my life right now Lord.It is making it VERY difficult for me to study. I need a peaceful place to live Lord so I can study. There is confusion because I am living between two apts. The W ST. one Lord, I have thought You wanted me to move out of. It is difficult to study because of the confusion.My clothes are at two apts, and it is difficult for my school paper organization with the confusion. Some of it circulates around C. It seems he thinks life is all about him, his medical woes.I am getting tired of hearing it. If I had wanted to marry a geeser with medical conditions I'd have married one of the nursing home residents, he is younger than me. As long as he has his coffee, ibuprofen, playstation, cigs, and is warm and has some food he seems to think why isn't she happy.HE HAS NO $ FOR THE ELECTRIC BILL! I have needs too Jesus and he isn't meeting the majority of my needs.Lord, he is too heavy for me to carry.He has not helped me financially, almost 0% and had I desired celibacy I would have been a nun.I have needs Jesus. I HAVE A MINOR SON TO THINK ABOUT HIS FUTURE, I don't want a man that is like another dependent and acts like he is ready for the nursing home, if I did I would have got pregnant again. It seems that he wants me to forget my parents house. What does he understand about children? He has none.It is like he has no thoughts of my son and my pain associated with being apart from him .ARE PEOPLE INSANE? I am in extreme pain missing my son.If C. can't accept my love for my son then maybe I will be dumping C. FAST. WELL, MY SON is on my thoughts OFTEN and my son is up at my parents; maybe some mothers forget their children, NOT THIS ONE!!!!! And I will NOT shut up about this until I am restored with T. as is written in my VISION. NOTHING MISSING, NOTHING BROKEN!!If it is Your will Lord for me to go up near my son this summer-- NO CONFUSION-- whether I take classes where I am in school now or not, what guarantee do I have of my safety and that I will see him. My parents have been mean to me for a long time,robbing me, and verbally abusive.Keep T. safe Oh Lord. I NEED RESTORED WITH MY SON ASAP. No matter where I take classes, Lord, I pray for scholarships that will even help me to get back loans paid off and that the financial aid office does NOT give me difficulties about papers and finances for school. scholarships Lord so that I barely do not have anything to do with the financial aid offices.Or employment that DIRECTLY relates to my study area. There is no 4 year college near where he is Lord. In the state I am in, one of WORST in the entire US as far as employment I need to get my degreeS. I would pray for death than to live as I did before...leading to why I am in school Lord.That previous situation and others makes it EXCEEDINGLY HARD to trust You Jesus. Help me Jesus, to start the revolution I so do desire to start. The state I live in needs an ENTIRE overhaul in the welfare system.Evildoers need to be exposed. I DON'T CARE that the college I attend trains social service workers.Too bad.It's no interest area to me. The protective services in parts of this state is a lie from the pit of hell. It needs to be dissolved. Help me Jesus, even through my college studies to start the revolution I so desire. Help me to study for my test Lord, Loose excellence into my life and T.'s in both our studies,restore us,a husband Lords that will help me AND not be a mother load to me,a man in my life Lord thast I do NOT have to support, a breadwinner provider. I pray THE CONFUSION STOPS!Help me to understand Your desire forthe summer and where You desire me to attend college. Yes this is long Lord. I want to like living Lord.Thank You Jesus.