i am lost and i have been crying out to the lord for help. i am weak and i call upon the lord for strength. my heart is heavy and i am praying that God will help lift it up

please pray for me as i feel so lost and alone and scared and i have been crying and wanting this life to be over. i know God is amazing and he loves me and i know i need to trust and not go by feelings but it is so hard as i am so alone. please pray that i will be blessed with friends, a good church to belong to and to find a wonderful Christian woman to date, fall in love with and to marry sooner rather than later

i lived most of my adult life by myself and i pushed so many people away, i am done doing that so please pray that God will forgive me that i used to do that and bless me with a Godly spouse to love and not push people away anymore

thank you

Remember you are not alone God is right there with you. God have a purpose for you and he is working in your life right now to make you a better person for the one he will send you as a spouse. Do not faint no matter how things may look like to you now, that's the enemy trying to discourage you, do not give into him. I pray the Lord will sustain your spirit and help you through it all. In Jesus name, amen. Read this below it has helped me for so many years when I been very low in my life, hope it will help you too and keep your faith on God and his promises to us. Don't worry if you crying that's the holy spirit cleaning you and you will become stronger.
One night I had a dream…
I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and Across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; One belonged to me, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before us, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, There was only one set of footprints. I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest
and saddest times in my life This really bothered me, and I questioned the Lord about it. “Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You would walk with me all the way; But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, There is only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why in times when I
needed you the most, you should leave me. The Lord replied, “My precious, precious child. I love you, and I would never, never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you.

Feelings change, life changes all the time and this season will too
God sees your tears
Every day is a new day and it's never too late to start again
Lord Jesus give this person a new start in You
Heal past wounds and sins and send loving supportive people along
May this guest have peace in You above all for You are the greatest love and friend of all