I feel like I have sinned beyond help..

Really repent and ask God for forgiveness you. Start reading the bible and praying to Him in Jesus name and He will show the way to His path. There is always forgiveness from God as long as you really are sincere and give Him your heart. Allow Him to guide you from now on, He will bring you out of the darkness into His light.
Lord guide this person to you and change their life completely as you make them a new creation in you. In the mighty name of Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior I pray. Amen!

Lord, please reach through the darkness and bring this one hope through your precious name Jesus. Amen

Yes there is always hope, we all have sin at one time or another for we are only human. Come to Jesus and he will
forgive you as long as you are really repented from your sins. He will give you new hope and joy in your life.
Lord touch this person, may they come to repentance in your precious name Jesus I pray amen.

In Jesus Name I decree and declare 1 John 3:8 b) over Neal. In Jesus Name I decree and declare "The Son of God came to destroy the works of the devil" over Neal. In Jesus Name I decree and declare Zechariah 4:7 agaisnt any mountain which is agaisnt Neal.

Lord's children are called kings first in Revelation 1:6 KJV. Is important to use authority and office of the king in spiritual realm. Also according with Exodus 20:5 is important to be free from any legal right from any unclean spirit.
In Jesus Name I decree and declare Exodus 14:14 and Deuteronomy 28:6-8 and 1 Chronicles 4:10 and Psalms 1:3 and Psalms 5:12 and Psalms 18:29 and Psalms 18:39 and Psalms 23 and Psalms 91 and Psalms 103:3 and Psalms 107:20 and Psalms 118:17 and Psalms 121:2 and 1 Peter 2:24 and Isaiah 54:17 and Ephesians 3:20 and Romans 8:37 and Philippians 4:13 and Luke 18:27 and Jeremiah 29:11 and 2 Samuel 22:33 and John 16:24 and according with Lord's will over Neal.
Thank You Lord

That is the enemy trying to make you lose faith and make you think Jesus will never forgive you. Jesus loves us even when we were still in sin, all you have to do is really repent and he will forgive you. Turn away from you sins and give God the honor and the glory for washing you in the blood of the Jesus and make you as clean as fresh clean snow. Just talk to God in Jesus name and let him know how you feel, and to give you the peace you need and strength to continue loving Him.
Lord help this person accept your forgiveness and to forgive them self too. Direct their steps closer to you as you make their faith and love for you stronger. I pray in Jesus name amen.