The night of September 19th Fred wanted to die and for me to choose where he shot himself. No one mattered to him, pictures and or memories did not matter. He threw furniture and family photos. It has been a hard few weeks. Therapy/counseling is a slow process. He has been told that he is a high functioning bipolar. Our lives have been turned upside down. He believes that he is too broken to be fixed and has done too much damage to us to be forgiven. He is extremely ashamed of what he has caused and has done. Please pray for not only him but me and our adult children…one knows what is going on and the other does not. I have not stayed at home since the incident. Pray that the devil unleashes the hold on him and he is able to seek forgiveness for himself and have self worth. I miss my home, my life, my animals and the good part of him.

Lord bring forgiveness, healing, respect, kindness, understanding, salvation, and peace from above to this family. Lord give this woman and her children the strength to see them through all of what is happening. Help her be able to return to her home and be with her pet in her own space soon without any fear from this man. Keep your protection over her, the rest of the family, even her pets, and home always. I pray in the mighty name of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ amen.