i am a sophmore in High School.
i have dreams of graduating early and getting a scholarship,
going to a medical college to be a pharmacist or the head of a pharmacist.
If thats not what God wants me to do then thats fine i know he chooses things for the best of me. The problem is my grades have always been terrible since 5th grade, i was a straight A student and i became so unecessarily lazy about school. I find myself side tracking and i passed the 8th grade with all F's and an acception. I know I know its ridiculous and that is sooo unacceptable! I passed 9th grade with c's and f's and one D.
I can't do this too myself anymore!! I feel like i have a terrible inner demon that i succumb to all the time!!! it breaks my heart that i throw my future away, the lord made it so i could to an accellling online school that was supposed to help me get straight A's he even got me a computer and printer in my room to make it comfortable and convenient and there is soo much stress in my life because i trip over little things and the little-est things can destroy my mood and leave me depressed. I also want to get a job but at this rate i can't i am sooo behind this semester that i need your prayers, mine and also GODS help to get me back where i need to be and in a good place that i havent been in in so long. Thank you for reading and i appreciate all of the prayers

-God bless you all

I will pray for you, definitely. I had the same EXACT problem in school. I did wonderfully until about the 4th or 5th grade when things started getting more challenging. I am wondering if you may possibly have Attention Deficit Disorder. I found out in my early 20s that that was what I had. I found out I was not "lazy" in school, I just could not concentrate to get my work done. Perhaps you need to see a doctor.

Lord, I lift this child up to you. Please let them not be hard on themself. Let them find the root of their problem so they may succeed in their life, on whatever path that may be. If it is your plan, dear Lord, I ask that you allow this child to succeed in school to become a pharmacist. I also ask that you give them your peace on a daily basis so the little things in life do not seem so overwhelming. I ask this in Jesus' name. Amen.

Thank you so much.
And for everyone else i am a female