A long time ago, I overdosed on two months' worth of anti-depressants and sleeping pills. I bounced back but now, years later, my girlfriend left me. We were about to get married and I am so confused with why she left all of a sudden. I've moved out into a friend's house. The other day I came across his gun in a drawer and I'm feeling very tempted. A life without my love is not a life I wish to be in. I want to hold off on self slaughter. I pray for reconciliation with my ex or, if not that, a merciful death from God so that I do not have to kill myself. I believe she is on a weekend trip with another man and my heart is breaking. I know exactly where the gun is at and am worried whether my fears of her and someone else are justified. If they are, I am unwilling to keep going.

Precious Jesus, I pray that man will give his heart and life to You. Lord, help him to do work for You. You created everything and he is one of Your works. Let him see that You want him to continue with life and serve You. Lord, give him strength and wisdom to understand Your will. Lord, I pray that he will not take the cowards way out. Lord, I pray that he will live a life that will be pleasing to You. In this I ask in Your name,Jesus.Amen.

dont do it my friend. the enemy is firing arrows at you,thoughts that want you to destroy yourself or another person.remember SATAN HAS COME TO KILL STEAL AND DESTROY you need to forgive all who has hurt you and ask the lord not to give up on you concerning your need to be free from this demonic fog of darkness that is blinding your mind and soul,listen forgiving others is important as you dont want to allow a door in your life to be open so the enemy can come in and attack you. i suggest you take your eyes of your girlfriend right now and place them on Jesus as LOVE doesnt exist outside of him,remember in order for the lord to fix all of you ,you need to give him all the pieces(he cant fix your broken heart if you dont give all of your heart to him) try it my friend it takes faith to lay your life down to him but trust me he knows what is best for you and dont go listening to those firery thoughts because they belong to satan and he is the father of lies and he does not know what is best for you.

Jesus loves you and there is purpose for everything through him. Even though the pain is unbearable right now, it will pass. She might now be the women God intended you to be with. Whenever you are feeling depressed and weak get down on your knees and pray for God's comfort. He will always be there for you. I pray that you make it through this and become a stronger person because of this. You are loved and God's love is more powerful then any human love. God Bless!