I feel the need to finally come to god with this burden that has been
weighting on my heart for years. I trust and believe god will fix this
problem and help me through this.
I can truly can say that he and I have been through everything
together. All of these things have made us stronger. He is the only
man in my life that I have been with I feel understand me and loves
every bit of my craziness. We have been through every bit of up and
down we can handle. The only problem that I have with him is he has
commitment issues .He seems to be always confused on what he wants to
do with the relationship. I have given him many chances to walk away
for the relationship and he just doesn't. He was in a relationship
before me and the female hurt him really bad. I just seems like he
can't get over the fact that i am not going to treat him that way. I
want to get married and when you say the word marriage, you literary
can see the color leave his face. He claims he doesn’t see the point
of marriage. I don’t want to continue to live a sin-full life. I want
kids and I don’t want them out of wedlock. I pray that god shows
Jonathan the benefits of marriage. I pray that go rids him of his
commitment issues. I have been fighting so hard to keep our
relationship together. I pray
every day that god makes our bond strong. I pray that he shows us the
way to marriage. I pray he shows us, how to continue to be
faithful,loving. Caring. Considerate and lust less. I pray he
continues to block temptation of cheating from both of our heart. I
pray he gives both of us the strength to deal with temptation. I pray
that the people that surrounds us encourages good instead of bad. I
pray that the negative people that are around us ,disappear. I pray
that god shows Jonathan how to become a better man and I a better
woman.