I met Brandon in work release because my daughter told me to write to him, and I would visit him, take him commissary, food, clothes ,and hygiene products. He came out moved into my mom's home my mom has dementia(I never asked him to) and he lived there for 1 year 7 months, during the last 7 months after he got work he became different. I felt he didn't like me, we went on trips I paid, for everything ,its like he forgot all those things. He is very selfish, he'd give me $400 a month to stay and every time he gave me the $100 if I didn't spend it back on him we wouldn't go out. I use to argue with him to get him straight I didn’t want him to go back to prison I wanted him to be a different person and not always about the streets he is 40 years old, and I felt it was time for a change I wanted to introduce him to better things but all Brandon thought about was Brandon. He had funny ways which I tried to except like he ask me why he should move out make my children move out, he has two daughters which he never was around. I feel like I dive into relationships to be loved and out of loneliness, because I have a hard time meeting men I don't know why either. I go with men who offer me nothing and in the end they come out on top. i feel so low because when he moved out, I text him begging him and he doesn't want to be bothered. I do pray he would change because I do care about him. But I also want GOD to strengthen me to be better for me, give me happiness, positivity and prosperity and help me to keep my head up and be strong, and keep me smiling even though my heart is bleeding from the hurt.

GOD I pray that you help my health to improve make me a better person in my mind, help me to love me and help bring me my soul mate, someone who loves Ermine the way I should love myself, I am truly tired of pain and hurt it's just as bad as being sick, i was bleeding from fibroids when he left, it just stopped. I want him to let Brandon realized he has been wrong to me and soften his heart, but only if he means it.

U need to keep it real with urself. You met a penpal who was ur daughter boyfriend cell mate! $doesnt by love! If you dont love yourself no1 is g onna truly love you! He clearly moved on & you proved yourself needy & desperate by insisting he carry on an afair with you behind his new womans back!!! Karma.....Low self Esteem, buying for mens attention is a cheap trick you playing on urself, and using what you did for.him as leverage to keep him around is driving you crazy & him away. Plus you KNOW HE IS IN LOVE WITH THE OTHER WOMAN WHO BUILDS HIS CHARACTER AS A MAN. HAND UP GO WAY FURTHER THAN HAND OUTS....!!!!

Praying for you...

Please pray this: "Dear Lord Jesus, thank You for dying on the Cross for me. Please come into my heart in a fresh new way and give me the ability to live as I should, a life that is pleasing to you. Grant me your peace, and let your shield of protection be over us all day and night. I have confidence in You, that You will be my Shepherd and provide what You see I need all the days of my life, as I live for You. Thank You, Lord Jesus, amen."

Pray that often, and read Psalm 23 and the final part of Romans 8 beginning with "If God is for us, who can be against us?"

Continuing to pray...