Before anything I want to thank you for your prayers as I am trying to figure out some tough situations in my life. I am thankful for my health, the roof over my head, my family, and the life God has blessed me with.

That being said, I feel like I am losing my mind because I feel like I don’t know what God wants me to do when it comes to certain people in my life. I tend to love hard and forgive with an open heart but I believe I purposely overlook certain qualities in my relationships that are not right. Sometimes I believe it is because of comfort or the fact that I love them so much. I fear for my future husband and marriage. I fear that I am investing time into a relationship that is set to destroy my character. I constantly ask God to give me a sure way sign so I can leave without feeling confused. I’m only 24. I daydream about having a beautiful marriage one day and a healthy home but the man I am with shows many signs of narcissism. Everyone in my life tells me to leave him. Sometimes I wonder if God himself told me to leave him, if I would actually do it. I just ask for clarity. I don’t have any friendships I can talk to about prayer and about God and I wish I did. If you are married, how did you know someone was or wasn’t for you? I don’t want to ruin God’s plan for my life by loving a man who is so far away from Him but I also don’t want to judge his path when I was the same one year ago. I want God to save him. I want him to see how much better life is with God. As of now, I do believe I’ve been falling into old habits because of the company I keep. I don’t blame them, I hold myself accountable for my actions. I feel like I have disappointed many people. I have disappointed God to the point sometimes I don’t feel worthy of being in his presence and it hurts so much because I know it’s not true. I feel like I have failed so many times even after he showed me how great He is. I am scared because I want a beautiful future and somehow keep falling into a circle of people who are not in the same path. I pray that God still sees me and knows that I am sorry if I keep getting in the way of his purpose for my life. I don’t know what I am doing and even when I know better, I mess it up.

Loving Father- in Your loving mercy turn this situation around. You are for us not against us and even when we choose outside Your ways You can turn these situations around for Your glory because You are rich in mercy

Give this guest Celcristina the strength to obey You day by day and guide her in wisdom. Help her seek support of family in Christ so that she will be upheld by her brothers and sisters and she can flourish.

Change her husband's heart and draw him to You in love and conviction- may he be won over as this guest seeks to obey You and go deeper with You. Guide her clearly and reassure her of Your love for her and forgiveness