I feel so lost and that God is so far away. I feel he hates me most of the time and I deserve that. I don't know which way to turn, I feel so alone. I feel no one cares, including God and I am so alone. I am struggling to go on. I don't understand why I am alive. I feel so worthless and useless. I cry to God but I doubt he hears. I don't know what to do.

Father of our hope & freedom. You & Your Words are the only indestructible things in this world. You are good & You are there for us in the good times as well as the difficult times. We will praise You in times of great blessing as well as in times of great challenge, Because of You we can stand strong even when we feel weak, we know that when we are weaker you show Yourself strong. We are grateful for Your salvation, delivrance, protection, goodness & blessing in our life every day. We know that everythings we have come from You & we will praise You & give You thanks.
You are the source of our delivrance in every circumstance. You alone are our inheritance & our cup of blessing. How great is Your goodness to those who trust & fear you. How excellent is Your name in all the earth. Abba Father please rescue us when we are troubled by negative thoughts & emotions & give us a sound & peaceful mind for You are not the author of confusion but of peace. Empower us with the mind of Christ & enable us to cast down every argument & high things that exalt itself against the knowledge of You & help us to bring every thought into captivity to the obedience to Christ

Kay, I pray in the Name of Yeshua that the Lord will comfort you in your circumstances. I pray that He will give you a strong desire to read and study His Word and to BELIEVE what He says vs. what the world is saying to you. Stop listening to the LIES of the evil one, but trust in the Lord with your whole heart, soul, and mind, and you will see that you will have true Shalom. You are alive for a reason, and that is to love and serve God and to help others to know Him and His goodness. I pray that He will reveal Yeshua to you in this Holy Season and that you will be set free from all your fears and troubles.