Today is my 20th birthday... I hope I have a good day despite the harsh winds coming by... I hope to have a good birthday today.

Also... tomorrow marks a de-anniversary to me... April 6th... it would be one year since my ex broke up with me... one long and lonely year... I am still hurt and heartbroken... yet even though I do have a crush on a guy at my college and at least try to date him so I will not feel lonely and lovesick... I still want my ex to be my husband someday in this lifetime... I mean... since he's dating someone now... and I have faith he will come back soon... I can still date someone (or at least try to get with him...) and still have faith right? ...Right? ...I just don't want to be lonely... I feel lonely without having someone to date or love... I'm lovesick... I still have faith that my ex will come back... but... I just don't want to be lonely... he's dating someone who I call my former best friend... and I think he's happier without me... I mean I'm glad he's happy and all but... I miss him... a lot... I do have a crush on a guy in college though... he's funny, he's intelligent and not to mention very attractive. I mean... I can date and still have faith right? I can have my crushes/try to date him or be with him and still have faith in the meantime right...? He doesn't know I have a crush on him but I'm planning on telling him before it could be too late... I might not have a chance with him anyway... but I can try right...? I doubt that he likes me in that way... but I can try right? And still have faith on my year long prayer right...? *sigh* I dunno.

I hope you all are doing well. Not much changed here. But I'm 20 now, if that's a "change" so to speak. Thank God for 20 years of living. Amen.

~Mel-S

Precious Jesus, I praise You for giving this young lady life 20 years ago. Lord, lead and direct her paths always. I pray that she will always be found serving You. I pray that she will use this heartache to be a great witness of Your love to others in the same situation. You have always been there for her through thick and thin. Praise Your name that she gives You the glory for the life You have blessed her with. Bless this young lady today and always. In this I ask in Your name,Jesus.Amen. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MEL S!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MEL S!!!
Lord help Mel S to keep allowing you to guide her steps, make this year the best she has ever had. Give her strength, wisdom, peace, and comfort so she won't feel so lonely. Walk beside her always and keep her from all harm. I pray this in your precious name , amen.

Dear Havenly Father The Kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven forgive us are sin as we for give are debtor and lead us not into temptiation but deliver us from evil Please answer this person prayer acord to your will and bless there life Lord and we give you all the honor,glory, and priase to whom all power belong. IN JESUS NAME I PRAY AMEN

(04-04-2011 10:49 PM)Mel-S Wrote:  Today is my 20th birthday... I hope I have a good day despite the harsh winds coming by... I hope to have a good birthday today.

Also... tomorrow marks a de-anniversary to me... April 6th... it would be one year since my ex broke up with me... one long and lonely year... I am still hurt and heartbroken... yet even though I do have a crush on a guy at my college and at least try to date him so I will not feel lonely and lovesick... I still want my ex to be my husband someday in this lifetime... I mean... since he's dating someone now... and I have faith he will come back soon... I can still date someone (or at least try to get with him...) and still have faith right? ...Right? ...I just don't want to be lonely... I feel lonely without having someone to date or love... I'm lovesick... I still have faith that my ex will come back... but... I just don't want to be lonely... he's dating someone who I call my former best friend... and I think he's happier without me... I mean I'm glad he's happy and all but... I miss him... a lot... I do have a crush on a guy in college though... he's funny, he's intelligent and not to mention very attractive. I mean... I can date and still have faith right? I can have my crushes/try to date him or be with him and still have faith in the meantime right...? He doesn't know I have a crush on him but I'm planning on telling him before it could be too late... I might not have a chance with him anyway... but I can try right...? I doubt that he likes me in that way... but I can try right? And still have faith on my year long prayer right...? *sigh* I dunno.

I hope you all are doing well. Not much changed here. But I'm 20 now, if that's a "change" so to speak. Thank God for 20 years of living. Amen.

~Mel-S

Mel,

I think it would be healthy for you to try things with this new guy. Perhaps the faith you exercise is that no matter what happens, the Lord always knows what's best. Perhaps this guy is better than your ex. I mean, you obviously have moved on somewhat and why should you wait around forever being miserable?

I would also recommend a book that I'm reading. It's called, "I Kissed Dating Goodbye," by Joshua Harris. I haven't finished reading it yet and although I don't agree with all of the points that the author suggest, I still recommend it. Perhaps it could give you some perspective on your situation. Perhaps the Lord could direct you through it as to what you should do for sure.

Hope everything works out for you and remember, the Lord is the friend that sticketh closer than a brother. So if you feel lonely, talk to Him and allow Him to comfort you.

Your sister in Christ,

Lost Love

Happy Birthday Mel (belated 1 day)!

God Bless you.

(04-04-2011 10:49 PM)Mel-S Wrote:  Today is my 20th birthday... I hope I have a good day despite the harsh winds coming by... I hope to have a good birthday today.

Also... tomorrow marks a de-anniversary to me... April 6th... it would be one year since my ex broke up with me... one long and lonely year... I am still hurt and heartbroken... yet even though I do have a crush on a guy at my college and at least try to date him so I will not feel lonely and lovesick... I still want my ex to be my husband someday in this lifetime... I mean... since he's dating someone now... and I have faith he will come back soon... I can still date someone (or at least try to get with him...) and still have faith right? ...Right? ...I just don't want to be lonely... I feel lonely without having someone to date or love... I'm lovesick... I still have faith that my ex will come back... but... I just don't want to be lonely... he's dating someone who I call my former best friend... and I think he's happier without me... I mean I'm glad he's happy and all but... I miss him... a lot... I do have a crush on a guy in college though... he's funny, he's intelligent and not to mention very attractive. I mean... I can date and still have faith right? I can have my crushes/try to date him or be with him and still have faith in the meantime right...? He doesn't know I have a crush on him but I'm planning on telling him before it could be too late... I might not have a chance with him anyway... but I can try right...? I doubt that he likes me in that way... but I can try right? And still have faith on my year long prayer right...? *sigh* I dunno.

I hope you all are doing well. Not much changed here. But I'm 20 now, if that's a "change" so to speak. Thank God for 20 years of living. Amen.

~Mel-S

Lord help Mel to have male friends but not to get serious about them right away. May she give herself time to recuperate from the hurt of the last love. She has to first be healed completely before going on into another serious relationship. Heal her heart Lord and help her to se clearly before committing herself to someone else. May she gain wisdom from what she has been through so she won't end up being hurt allover again. Have your perfect will be done in her live as you guide her, I pray this in Jesus name, amen.
Hope your had a blessed birthday Mel!