I want prayer for the following, and need prosperity for my finances as soon as possible, because I am in debt. for this reason I am not sure if I can even keep my web site up, or phone number. I am seriously ONLY interested in doing God's work, so I think God should be finding me some place in this world away from the realm of satan's camp to the camp of the saints, but I have not found it yet. If anybody can do anything for me, let me know. I also need a girlfriend for the purpose of marriage, and I like black women though I am white, but why I do, it is not because they are better, so I am open to any possible race. I made a profile on "www.plentyoffish.com" but nobody is interested so far. I made my user name "wanttoswim," (see my photo there,) because I have been wanting to start swimming again for a long time, but life has been too hard. I just ended a 6 1/2 year relationship with a Nigerian woman because it was overseas and I never met her, and I gave her around $25,000 during that time, because I was so discouraged about hoping to get a wife here, but it turned out she was a scam, because she claimed she was starving at the end, and very sick. She claimed she had land to sell, I struggled with trusting her and borrowing the money to get her the documents and travel money, and money for hospitals, etc., but when I contacted a pastor there, and though he said he would give her money and take care of her, she did not want to go, but said, she will be fine and has friends who are always there for her. She said she did not want to be his slave, and she wants her life back. she called me up a day ago, and I asked her why she is calling me. She said, "is it a crime to just call to here your voice?" I said it is if you take my money and never give me anything for it. she just hung up, that was it. I am tired of being alone. The following is a true discription of my faith, and which is why sometimes I wish I did not have faith, but the only option is believing lies. and that is worse. I am in serious debt, like with taxes and car loans, and title loans, and credit cards, like maybe $35,000, and I don't even know if I can keep the only job I have now which is a paper route.
I am looking for an agent and/or publisher to promote my writing. I write evangelical literature, and it is not main stream as far as sticking to the traditional ideas, but it is all Biblically based. It is my own personal interpretations of the word, and explanations of my thoughts as I perceive they pertain to the mind of God. I know this does not sound appealing or anything that can sell, but in every age there is new “shifts” in what is in demand. Perhaps people will want to read it if it were just “pushed” a little, and like getting a wet log on fire, it might take a little heat behind it. People have accepted the false idea that churches are preaching “the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth,” but it is a lie. True Christianity has not been preached. The gospel of the kingdom, who is the image of God, has not been preached since the days of the apostles, when Paul said, “I know that after I depart, grievous wolves shall enter and not spare the flock.” What is the greatest proof that what I am saying is so? Let us start in the book of Genesis, what could be simpler? Just take the first words: “In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.” God’s style of speech is parables. His son, like his father spoke in parables, and so the heavens and the earth are symbolic, and metaphorical. These words coincide directly with John 1; 1, “In the beginning was the word, and the word was with God and the word was God.” The whole first chapter of Genesis to chapter 2; 4, when God said, (after “virtually” created all things, including filling the universe with “GENERATIONS” of human beings, which many think of as “aliens,”) God said, “there neither any plant or any human to till the ground.” Many take this to mean God is speaking in “cross sections” of the whole, and this is not a literal “consecutive order” of his works, but it is! The heavens and the earth in 1; 1, is the word, and this word was with God, and was called “God” because all God speaks into being, (which he calls as though it is,) is all called God. That is why in Genesis chapter 1, it is always said, “and it was very good,” or that is, “very God,” which is why Jesus did not accept the title “good,” for he said, “there is one good, and that is God.” Paul says, “every creature of God is good and nothing to be refused,” but why? “for it is sanctified by the word of God, (which is God, and therefore “good,”) and prayer.” You may yet say, “this proves nothing, and it is all conjecture and opinions,” but when you realize that lies and falsehood do not come in obvious things, and yet they are as potently untrue as if they were obvious, and maybe more so, because they can ensnare the mind in a quagmire of unclarity, and that God is the judge who interprets all we teach and gives the final meaning and interpretation of them, then it is of the highest interest to be clear and sure in what is the basis of what Christianity is. To be “Christian” means to be “anointed.” The fact that the very devil is called the “anointed cherub” means he is by strict definition, “Christian.” The fact the Jews poured anointing oil on the King and the holy spirit backed it up with his presence and power, made him Christian. And so if all people to some degree were not Christian, or that is “anointed,” there would be no power, for “there is no power but of God, the powers that be are ordained of God.” But to claim Jesus as the source of our anointing means we must “discern his body,” which means to know the nature of his existence, in that he is the “only begotten son of God.” This means he alone came directly from the father, who sees the end from the beginning, and therefore could create all things in one entity, making him “so much better than the angels,” and so to “deny him” means we only must deny his sonship with his father. To do that is as easy as denying he was “the beginning of the creation of God,” by claiming he is “God” in the sense that he was never “made flesh,” but always had a “sentient” existence. This is lack of love to Jesus, to claim something about him which does not apply to him, which undermines his experience in the world as a “man sorrows and acquainted with grief.” There is no difference between thinking Jesus existed as flesh before he was conceived, and the idea of “reincarnation.” Every creature of God existed “as the word,” chosen in Christ from before the foundation of the world, and they were “with God,” as his treasured creation, but that does not mean they had any “sentient” knowledge that they existed. Likewise Jesus did not know he existed prior to his being conceived in the womb of Mary as the second Adam, and so that makes all he experienced since his conception, his first perception of reality. He prayed to be restored to the glory he had with God from before the foundation of the world, just as we must pray, if we are to saved. But since he was not conceived in sin, and the greatest of all the sons of God, who is the “everlasting father” of us all, he grew quickly and very rapidly, and his mind, which is our very “head,” expanded as if it were “detonated” into the vast expanses of God’s own mind. God commanded him to speak only in parables, and to not reveal the “depths of his wisdom,” or else the “god” of this world satan would have been enlightened to know the plan of God, that to crucify Jesus would be his own downfall from being the “anointed cherub,” because Jesus would begin a “new testament” of life in his own blood, instead of the old testament, which Paul calls the “ministry of death,” which was by the anointing, or “blood” of satan. For he says, “if the first covenant had been faultless, then no place would have been sought for a second.” The temptations satan placed on Jesus shows that satan did not know who Jesus was, though he read the prophecies of a “savior” who would redeem Israel, when he said, “IF” you be the son of God. Had satan known he were the son of God, satan would have backed off, and “had nothing to do with that just man” as the dream the woman had told her to tell Pilot. Satan is very intelligent, and his anointing, allows him to have a general “omnipotence” which covers the globe, by which he can scan and count every molecule and mathematic equation all at one time, “but” he lost his connection with God, the source of his anointing, and so like a fool with money, he does not know the best way of “using” his anointing to his own good. The command of Jesus to “go into all the world and preach the gospel,” was a direct opposite comparison to the command God gave the children of Israel, to, in so many words, “go into all the world and preach the gospel with the edge of the sword of steel.” Now Jesus is the “sword of the spirit,” and “kills” not physically, but in the sense of “convicting the world of sin,” but he can only do that through his church, who is born of the holy spirit. Jesus was the man “whose blood was shed,” and satan is the “man” who shed his blood, and so now because Jesus is the express image of God, meaning the “engraver of God’s image,” Satan's blood, or “anointing” must be shed, and Jesus given all power in heaven and earth.
Whether I am right or not about any of these things, which I know I can always be corrected and learn more, since as Paul says, who learned so much, learned only one thing, that “he knows nothing as he ought to know.” The more knowledge we have the more we know how little we know. But this is my style of writing, and you may say it will never sell or be of interest to anyone, but though this may be a poor example, one producer also said that about the Beetles. I have a whole new category of writing: it is Christian, but not acceptable and even heretical to mainstream Christianity. And it is not like any other kind of writing I ever read or heard of, and yet from a historical perceptive, that does not necessarily mean it will not “fly” or at best do poorly. Maybe I just need the right agent to promote me, and get me started. I also plan to do many speeches and evangelical endeavors, and set up whole ministries based on my writing, which I think directs us to God as the source of our understanding. I do not want to do as satan did to Eve, and get her to obey him, without asking her husband first, which in our case is the second Adam, Jesus Christ. I am just seeking to fulfill the function which God created me to perform, which (with his spirit) is to “seek his deep things.” We are made in his image, but if we do not “perform” according to his image, then we are like a car which does not drive. Sure it is in the image of a car, but is it really a car if it is broken? We are all shaped in sin as Psalm 51 says, so though we are made externally in God’s image, under the “hood” of our hearts, our “engines” which would drive us towards God’s deep things, which is his omnipotence, are not working. They are so broken, David the prophet does not pray “fix” my heart, but create in me a new heart. Only Jesus had that broken and contrite heart which “God does not despise,” and so that is why his heart was “poured out like wax” so he may mold in us a new heart. That is what the Lord’s supper is for, so we may eat his body broken for us, and thereby have the means to be made new creatures, and receive his blood, which is the spirit of his father which he shed for us on the cross, which made him cry “my God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”
If you are interested in helping me potentially start a new “move of God,” by promoting my writing, and you are zealous about it, at least from a financial perspective for your own gain, but ideally for a higher good which be more than that Thanks.
(This post was last modified: 06-03-2008 04:58 PM by admin.)
