Lord, I Give my husband to you in prayer. He is one of your children who has hardened his heart to your voice. He believes in you, but he has not heard your voice calling him in quite some time Lord or to read your Word. I stand now, on your Word that if two or more gather in my name, it will be done. I ask my brothers and sisters in Christ to pray with me to restore my marriage, and to restore our relationship with you.
I was ready to walkout the door 2 weeks ago, filled with remorse, bitterness, resentment and un-forgiveness in my heart. When my husband,who was equally as unhappy as I was offered divorce, it was the first thing that we found we fully agreed on in several years. My husband and I love each other, and fought so hard against many odds to be together. Although we persevered, during periods of weakness in spirit related to all of the stress we had both been under, began to neglect each other.
I started to pray, trying to play the victim card to God. I didn't expect him to whammy me with the truth of my selfish sins. It was like God held up this mirror to me and said - look at the pain you've caused this person that I gave to you. Look at the hurt you caused by choosing not to love as you were called to do. Look at the selfishness and grief that your pride has cost you. Look at this man, who loves you but you could not bring yourself to forgive. Look at the price your soul has paid by choosing not to walk with Me. I was completely and utterly shattered. I wept. I wept for his pain, I wept for the loss of time, I wept and pleaded for God's forgiveness - and in that moment I saw I needed to REPENT... Not only to God, but to my husband. I needed to obey his Word. An overwhelming and powerful conviction to FIGHT SATAN for my marriage.
My husband thinks that I am suddenly motivated by some selfish need for self-preservation. Another LIE from Satan, the marriage destroyer.
Please - pray for me, pray for my husband, pray for my marriage, pray for the power of God to be revealed in our lives.
Jesus, I pray humbly for your forgiveness for my sins. I thank and Praise You for this burden you have given me. Please take my life, mold it into who You want me to be. Please let my thoughts, my actions, my words be a reflection of the Power of You, Lord. Please grant me the peace to accept the harsh, hate filled words with grace and to forgive, knowing that they do not come from you Lord, but from the devil. Please Remove the hold and the blinders that the deceptive one has placed around my husband's heart. Please do not make him a puppet Lord, but give him the conviction to Serve you, to be humbled by your Love, to repent. Lord,bring people in his life that serve you,and give Godly counsel. In Jesus' name and the Holy Spirit I pray, Amen.
Your child,
Melanie