We have on and off been together for approx. 15yrs and I am wondering if we will ever get married.I have had a wedding dress for a while and prob now need to lose some weight to fit in it.No man as a husband who sabatoges my looks and weight with fattening foods. C. can get a better diet. I care about my health. I have promises from God about a new mate; I am divorced and that was not my fault. I have been divorced approx 24yrs,I have not had alot of dates, and had too much stress alone. I have been financially assting him-C. since a medical scare earlier. Now he has thus far had only on again and off again income. I pray for REAL LOVE.Does he-C. know what that is?Where is the affection Lord? Is there any there?A love who cares about me as mom and me having excellent relationships with my children.I do not want to be used, or abused as emotional,verbal abuse .A sober husband, Whether we stay together or not he-C.needs to help me financially,NOT run me into debt.No poverty.God knows why.Real love in my life.Thank YOU LORD