I am a 32 year old Paramedic. I have been a believer all of my life. About 2 years ago I lost my beloved grandmother who was very near and dear to me. Shortly after that, I experienced a traumatic event in which I honestly thought I was going to die. Ever since then I have struggled with anxiety and panic attacks. My main issues are health anxiety, death anxiety, and God Anxiety. The first two I can deal with, it seems that years as a Paramedic have made me a bit of a hyperchondriac and now I am convinced that something is wrong and I am going to die. This happens on a daily basis. This leads me to my God anxiety. I believe in God, I go to church, I even started reading bible verses almost every day. I pray almost every day. I should be closer than ever to God, but instead I feel farther away. For the first time in my life, I am doubting the existence of God. I am so conflicted. I pray and doubt at the same time. I ask God to take away my doubts, but they remain. I will NEVER stop believing, praying, and worshiping, but I want to stop doubting. If I doubt, am I a "True" believer? Will I still go to Hevan if I have doubts? I don't want to doubt, it just pops in my head. I need prayer and advise. This is keepinge up at nights and causing me to worry all the time.
Thank you all for your prayer, help, and advice in advance!!
Allen

My dear friend, we war against demonic spirits and I understand what you are going through. It is not you but the demons that's around you are making you feel this way. You are in a spiritual war against these evil spirits. I'm going to name some of them and you must bind and cast them out in the name of Jesus. You can only do this if you are born-again christian. You need deliverance. Around you have the following evil spirits: spirit of death, spirit of infirmity, and the most higher demon is the spirit of python and leviathan. You must cast them out in the name of Jesus. Also, plead the Blood of Jesus on yourself everyday; before you go to sleep and before you go to work. These evil spirits has transfered to you from people that you helped. I will keep you in prayer in Jesus' name.

Father, in the name of our Lord Jesus, I ask that you encamp your holy warring guardian angels around Uabmedic everyday and where ever he goes. Protect him and keep him from harm. Protect his mind from the whispers of the enemy in Jesus' name. Give him peace of mind and in his heart and filled him with your Holy Spirit in Jesus' name. When he goes to bed, command your holy angels to stand around his bed and make him feel your presence in Jesus' name. Thank you Father. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

Thank you so much for your prayer, strength, guidance, and encouragement. Today has been an especially taxing day, I turned 33, had an MRI, and confirmed that I have a small benign tumor on my pituitary gland. It honestly isn't anything too bad, but with everything ai have going on right now, it's just anlittle tougher. Please keep me in your prayers.
Thanks!
Allen

In Jesus Name i command that all powers of darkness and curses to leave Allen and their home ! Now !
I pray that Lord's will be done in their life. Amen
Psalms 107:20 Amen
Isaiah 53:5 Amen
Isaiah 54:17 Amen