Hi, I'm Sam. My girlfriend, Ellys broke up with me about a month ago. Well, I have to admit we fell into sexual immorality and thus gave the enemy a loophole to destroy our God blessed relationship. I have repented from that and during my hardest time, I went back to God. He is always loving and accepted me and filled me with His love and presence. I'm grateful to Him and close to Him than ever.
But Ellys on the other hand, I wouldn't say fell into the other direction, but I believe she's on the way there. There was this male colleague that was in the picture and Ellys said to me that he treated her the way that I failed to. About a week or so after the break up, they were together already. Ellys even admitted that maybe the male colleague was just comfort. But he is not a believer. He often drinks and clubs. It breaks my heart that she is going out with him as comfort because I know after the break up, there was a big emptiness in her as she shared to me that no one has ever made her feel so loved (except God) in a human relational way.
Ellys did say that she wanted abstinence in our relationship and I failed to do that because I was far away from God and the lies and deception of the enemy got the best of me. And now I pray and hope that Ellys will be able to stay true to herself and not fall into sexual intimacy in any forms. Also, I feel that she's getting further away from God. I don't know for sure but by seeing her attendance in church and how she acts when she's in church, I could feel that she's not drawing near to God. And I feel that her current boyfriend is influencing her in a bad way.
Definitely I would want her back. I love her, and I have committed myself to her, even to put a ring on her finger as a vow to take her as my wife in the future. She committed herself to me as well, we both did. But it wasn't done in honour of God, it was on that night that we fell in sexual sin. Our intentions were pure, but actions were wrong before God. I ask for God's forgiveness.
God also spoke to me that restoration in my life is coming. I'm not sure if He meant that He will bring Ellys back. But He brought me to the place of my brokenness, the place where Ellys called it off and showed me through a scene that restoration is coming, I just have to wait and trust Him. I want to believe God for Ellys to come back and also in all other aspect of my life. My spiritual walk with God (already restored, and God added a few more levels to it), my relationship and also my future.
Please pray for Ellys to come back to God. That God will open her eyes and speak to her in such an audible voice that she will wake up to her senses. Also for her to have boldness, assurance, security, strength and the grace of God to do what is right, to honour God and walk out of her current relationship.
Also, I want to believe for God to bring Ellys back to me and restore all aspect of my life that the enemy has destroyed.
