God I have many unanswered questions that plague my heart, my soul. Questions that have lead me astray, looking for answers though other religions, other spiritual paths. I am filled with questions, guilt and sorrow. If you are with me, please answer my call.

Why did you only care for the people of Israel in the ancient times? Why even though many of them believed you abandon them and wished Moses would leave Egypt did you STILL care to save them? Why did you not care about the Egyptians as well? Is it because you were not the God of ALL MAN KIND but only the God of the Jews? If so then WHY did you create the Egyptians and other breeds of man if you did not care for their souls? I am not Jewish, does that mean you do not care for me as well? If you DO then what changed your mind? Why did you all of a sudden become the God who cared to save ALL of human kind?

I am not asking this because I do not believe in your existence? No, I know I have a soul that needs saving. I know I am not just some animal that evolved into a conscious human being. I know my brain has not created my beliefs, my emotions, my thoughts. My brain is no more ME than my stomach is me. It's just a part of my human body but I know I am much more than that. I am one of those lucky few who you have REVEALED yourself to me. God why did you speak to me? Not in thought, not in prayer, not in a dream but you CAME to me when I was a young child, told me who you were and told me what was to come. What you said DID come......but you never came back. You never helped me!

What was the point in you telling me what was to come if it had nothing to do with me? If your warning would not help? Why did you not tell me my purpose in life? Why am I left with not only the belief in your existence and the KNOWLEDGE of your existence but I am left with all these questions. What is my purpose here on earth? Why am I here...to suffer? I am SUFFERING here on earth without purpose. I need to know what my purpose is, what my path is...I feel I am not living up to my purpose. I feel as though I am already dead.

Why did you reveal yourself to those of the ancient times even when they did not believe in you after you saved them...and they demanded more and more and more But you will not reveal yourself to me and SAVE ME. My heart is aching for you God...I need these answers. Telling me to HAVE FAITH is not enough. Having faith has only left me feeling empty. I need answers. I need purpose. Or I am already a dead soul lost in hell for all eternity.

Your dissatisfaction can be a result of spiritual warfare (Eph. 6:10-12) and not an indication that we are out of God’s will. But it can also be a road sign that He has another purpose for us. So if you’re miserable in your current situation, (and you have been for a long time), you’ve prayed, sought counsel from others, looked for guidance through Scripture, and you’re still miserable, consider that God may have another plan. Also consider that since God has called you, He is completely able to reveal your purpose to you, and He will as you DILIGENTLY SEEK HIM (Heb. 11:6).

I pray that God will give you wisdom and understanding. "That the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh." 2 Cor. 4:10 "...It is not a question of being saved from hell, but of being saved in order to manifest the life of the Son of God in our mortal flesh, and it is the disagreeable things which make us exhibit whether or not we are manifesting His life. Do I manifest the essential sweetness of the Son of God, or the essential irritation of ‘myself’ apart from Him? 'The only thing that will enable me to enjoy the disagreeable is the keen enthusiasm of letting the life of the Son of God manifest itself in me. No matter how disagreeable a thing may be, say 'Lord, I am delighted to obey Thee in this matter,' and instantly the Son of God will press to the front, and there will be manifested in my human life that which glorifies Jesus. "There must be no debate. The moment you obey the light, the Son of God presses through you in that particular; but if you debate you grieve the Spirit of God. You must keep yourself [spiritually] fit to let the life of the Son of God(Jesus) be manifested, and you cannot keep yourself fit if you give way to self-pity. Our circumstances are the means of manifesting how wonderfully perfect and extraordinarily pure the Son of God is. The thing that ought to make the heart beat is a new way of manifesting the Son of God. It is one thing to choose the disagreeable, and another thing to go into the disagreeable by God’s engineering. If God puts you there, He is amply sufficient."

Lastly, consider that your purpose is not just about you; it’s about what God wants to do through you. Therefore, if you ignore or neglect your dissatisfaction, what others say about you, your gifts and your passions, you are not only betraying yourself, but betraying God; because He has called you to a purpose and wants you to walk in it — for others and for your own joy. Please read the Bible over and over from front cover to back. Your answers is in there, God will speak to you again.

Dear Lord I pray f this quest. Will you please bind satan from them .Please bind Satan casting shadows of doubt. Lord I pray that his person will read your word. Follow you. I pray that you wil guide them and show them what you want them to do. And I ask this in Jesus Precious name Amen