I just found this forum and read a few posts .. prayed a few prayers..

My situation is.. I have failed in the past by not being patient and waiting GOd's lead.. I have struggled .. but God never turned me away.. I finally am working a great job.. so financially Im not doing great but I am blessed with a job that I love and making enough to live life.. My prayer request is for ... My lonileness in heart.. I have always had a heart filled with love wanting a companion to share this love with.. in my past I wasnt patient enough to wait for God's lead and I chose wrong ones.. Recently a friend of mine for 3 years .. even tho I had feelings from the start .. for her .. I was hard hearted due to my past mistakes .. but recently I took a chance and opened my heart which was very hard to do .. Yet My prayer is to not be selfish in my wanting her but that God see fit to give me strength to take whatever comes of this.. I dont want to lose her as a friend.. yet I have fallen in Love with her and know not what to do .. I know that I cant put her before GOd.. and I know that praying that God make her mine is not the right thing to do .. instead I pray that God Blesses her with the best and only hope one day I will be the best for someone.. I can now kind of understand what Adam must have felt in the garden of eden alone ... I dont know what to do ... in the past I filled my lonileness with unclean things and I dont want that .. I want God's blessing and true love.. a love like mine

God please guide utvols1 in the right direction. Please bring him true love and happiness. May he find the right person to share his life and a relationship with you. May your will be done. AMEN

Thank those that have prayed for me on this and I would like to ask for you to continue praying for me .. I have realized that every time I get this close to God and on the right path ... Satan tempts me .... I have fought temptation the last cpl days thanks to the strength given to me from God.. Temptation from old flames / friends etc. that seemed to come out of the shadows I want to thank you for praying and Thank God for allowing me to see these things Satan is trying against me as they are and not be distracted... I know that my love for this woman is real and yet I also know that regardless of the Love I have developed for her ... it has to be her will to be with me as well God gave us all free will to chose our paths and Ultimately I know if I stay on the right path and Let go and Let God lead me I wont lose a friend .. I may not gain a lover.. even as much as it wold hurt if that dosent happen I know that God will give me strength and understanding and I pray that God's Will be done in my life so that I can be a blessing to others