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Please pray for me.
Both my parents are deceased - I am 46yrs old divorced and have lived in an area without close family members for a long time. I have a one son - he is 19yrs - we are arguing terrible. He is becoming addicted to drugs - he is all I have and now he curses me and threatens me. I have ask him to leave - he has no job - I think he is selling "spice" - the drug of choice for allot of teens now because it is legal in the "smoke shops"
I worked three jobs for over a year - about 95hrs a week to keep my home and bills going until recently in August I got a promotion and now I am working two jobs - its still long hours and I am getting tired.
I have developed a cough I cannot seem to shake for two weeks now..........I am just wearing out it seems - exhausted feeling physically and emotionally.
My faith is lacking now..........and I am just tired of the fight. I wonder what the purpose is now - the child that I have raised and lived for - the child that I played with and took to the parks and stargazed and would make sure he saw the rainbows when the sun came out during a rain .......... is now someone I don't know....... his father is 100% uninvolved - I divorced when Brad was 10yrs due to a verbally abusive relationship and now my son talks to me worse than his father did.........my heart feels broken. I have ask Brad to leave the home because of his yelling screaming and threatening me. I cannot continue living like this .......My mother was addicted to pain medications after I was 13yrs old and I had to live in that environment - God - it hurt so bad then - she died a few years back of an accidental overdose now those things that overtime I have tried to heal within me are raging at me though my own child...........verbal abuse and addictions - I am lost I don't know where to turn.
.Please pray for me and for him. I am at my second job now and trying to hang on to what I have ........... I don't ask much of anyone and I do not count on government help because of my own values. But I have to ask for prayer I need help that only God can give me and I know that - I have been lost over time - through being a single parent and trying to be so independent - I have lost the most important thing in my life............my faith.
Thank you for your time
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| 10-15-2010 04:38 PM |
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