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| Posted by Guest - 10-17-2013 07:26 PM |
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It has been a little over six months now since my best friend and I have spoken. For years, I was in love with him, and after two and half years of being best friends, we became a couple. He was lost and had sat in my church when a clear salvation message was preached. However, he did not respond the way he ought to have. He thought because I got so upset that our friendship was over, but of coarse, I stuck by his side. But, I did notice that I gave up on the hope of him being saved. We got together, and we had a very up and down type of relationship, because he was not being honest about his feelings for me. After break-ups and getting back together, I finally had enough. We had a blow up argument and I ended it. I was so angry I said I didn't even want to know him. That very night, I felt this verse come to me. "Pray for those that despitefully use you." When I looked up the verse I had missed in one of my devotions for that day, I found that was the verse, and I cried and cried. I struggled with that, but after some counseling with my pastor's wife and study, I decided it was the Lord's will for me to pray for him. In the last six months, I have noticed that my faith has been renewed in his getting saved. However, I still have moments of doubt. I get devotions how the Lord answers prayer and waiting, but still it creeps up. The last time I doubted, I asked God if it was really right for me to ask for reconciliation...or if He simply wanted me to pray for his salvation and to never again "hope" to be together again. That night, I looked up my devotion, looking for a real answer, whether it was yes or no, I didn't care. The Lord answered with a devotion that I received via email, "the necessity of friendship," which spoke on both friendship and marriage. So, what can I do about my doubt? I believe strongly the Lord has told me that He can reconcile my friendship and I know that in waiting on Him, I have learned to want my friend's salvation more and more. I want him to be a true man of God, not just so he can date me and have a happy ending, but so he can have a fulfilled life in Christ. I want him to serve the Lord and be in a good, bible-believing church, with strong morality and faithfulness to God. I believe the Lord has changed that aspect strongly...but I would be lying if I said I still didn't want to contact my ex. I know that the Lord would not permit it... I know, this is a lot of writing and rambling on. I just care very much for this young man. I have prayed every day for him, regardless of how much doubt I feel that day (or belief and faith), to be faithful in what the Lord asked of me. If anyone is led to pray over this, please pray for his salvation and the reconciliation of our friendship. He was my very best friend, and I believe the Lord could repair that deep friendship and grow it into romance the right way. But, I don't want to be unequally yoked, I don't want to simply have another chance at a relationship...I want my friend back more than anything. I felt like I lost that...and I know the Lord is the only one who could restore him fully and put him back on the right track. Thanks for your prayers. |