Update--

Please be in deep prayer for my friend. The good news is that he has become more outgoing and has made a whole new group of friends. The bad news is, some of the are devout mormon (he has been out of the church himself for a few years--not due to dislike of the mormon faith, but for other, unspecified reasons). I am afraid that his new-found search for religion may be headed in a wrong direction. I believe this to be an attack of Satan and I just want the Lord to intervene so that he is not once again blinded by this religion. Please pray that he would see the truth before being engrossed in something that will lead him straight to hell.

Please also pray for me. It made me nauseous last night to see him with another girl--from the comments that one of his friends made, it was like a dinner date, but I am also assuming. It could be absolutely nothing--especially considering his previous engagements. I do not think he knows exactly what he wants out of life just yet and it is probably nothing to worry about. That being said, it has been extremely difficult for me to supress my jealousies and my anxiety about it--I truly want to be with this man, but when God permits it. It's an attack on me...even after he is saved, I may not end up with him...I'm not sure of how to face this fact. I want to be content, because God could offer him in a better way than if he were unsaved and we dated--and, he might just be a friend that God wants me to have and nothing more. The latter is much more difficult a fact to face. Please pray for me--this is secondary of coarse...friendship, romance, whatever the case is nothing compared to an eternity in hell. I just need strength, because I feel like giving up, but I feel that the Lord would have me to continue the friendship. I don't know that he knows any believers (true believers) besides myself (one other professes to be saved, but I'm not sure that she is based upon worldly behavior--it's really not my place to judge). I don't want to become unusable due to my own, selfish desires and wants.

I am striving not be a spoiled child who whines when she doesn't get what she wants. I just need prayer, encouragement. I don't know if anyone can help. I do love him--but my love isn't enough...and it seems to be thrown in my face every day. Perhaps this behavior is to show me how much he truly needs the Lord...over me or any other woman.

Thank you for your prayers and support.