God its me. Please forgive me for messing things up. I am in so much pain right now. I feel like giving up. My son hates his dad. He said we can do better without him. I cant take the ups & downs anymore. I can't listen to the lies. I think his plan is to start all over again with his ex-girlfriend. Throw us away like we are yesterdays news. I know it is part of his addiction but it really hurts. Me & my son will be moving to my mom & dads. We were all suppose to move back there to save money to get a new apartment. I just feel so down in my spirit. I need God to touch me. I feel like my husband and best friend are gone from my life. It hurts to see my son in so much pain. Please God just touch us and make us happy again.