Dear Lord,

I have no idea what You have in store for me Lord, but I know that the intents of Your heart are pure, just, and righteous. You only have good thoughts of me and even when I am hurting, You know what is truly best. I've wanted to be with this man for so long and it seems so incredibly impossible--even now, the modest request for his salvation seems out of reach. I feel hopeless at times, but I know that You are still God--that You never change. You've always loved me and You will never abandon me as I have been abandoned in this situation. I was told that things could be worse and I praise You for the blessing I have found in this young man. I was touched by his kindness, his friendship, and his companionship and although things are on shaky ground, I know that I stand on the Rock--You are immovable. You know what is best.

I ask that if it be Your will that You would make a way where there is none--that You would open the door that You would have for me. I ask that You would put an end to the pain I've been enduring for quite sometime now. I ask that You would give me strength and the courage to continue on. I'm so scared--I have no idea what You would have me to do. Am I wrong in backing away? Am I wrong in trying to keep a close friendship with this man? Show me Your will and Yours alone. Help me to see and not to find any more sorrow.

I ask that my friend would be saved--that You would somehow open the door. Lord, I don't know how You can work through me or if you can use me--I am willing and I know that You can make me able--that You will shine through. I pray that You would use me and send someone who can talk to my friend. He needs You so much Lord--I need You, Lord. I just don't know what to do. Am I on the right path? Give me the words--give me the direction I need, please Lord. Show me what I am to glean from all of this--no one else can show me, but You. I pray and ask that Your direction would be obvious and that I would be moved to go where You want me to go. Please show me what to do.

I thank You for giving me my friend. Often times I forget that he is a gift--that he has provided laughter that no one else can. I thank you that I can look back and smile, although my heart is weary. I thank You that You showed me to this young man inspite of all that has happened. I ask that You would just make everything okay again--that I would be led out of the storm.

I ask that You would heal my broken heart. Old wounds have been opened and I ask that You would, as the great Physician, heal them and touch them in a way that no one else can. I'm so scared--so afraid of making a mistake--of making myself more miserable by taking the wrong path. I don't want to regret not enjoying the company of this man--for forsaking it. Please show me what You want me to do.

I thank You for being the God that You are. For taking my burdens, for caring about me--for the lesson I am to learn from this. I just pray Lord that You would take me out soon and that I wouldn't hurt any more--that I can glean the joy that You would have me to have.

I pray that my friend would be saved and that he too would find Your joy--that he would be led to the life that is right for him. I ask that You would have Your perfect will--that You would soften his heart to receive Your truth. To receive Your word. Lord, he is going home this weekend. I pray Lord that if You would, send someone to him while he is away--someone to witness to him. Perhaps someone will cross his path and he can be saved. However, even though I want things to be done now, I know that there is a reason for Your timing. I pray that You would open the door whenever You deem fit. I do not want to put a time-clock on You. But if possible, please send someone to him soon who can speak to him, who You can use so that he would be led to You. I ask that You would give my friend a servants heart and that he would grow quickly and wholly in You--that he would be the servant that You would have him to be.

I thank You for Your goodness. In Christ's holy and precious name I pray. Amen.

Father, bring this young woman to great clarity about her situation. Let her see as she asks Your will Father no matter what that is...because she is willing to follow it. Father...help her to see what burdens she should carry and which she should leave at your feet. Father mend up her heart that she sees things without the filter of emotional suffering. Father lead and guide this young woman that she will enter into the destiny that YOU have planned for her life. In Jesus name...Amen!

I've been pretty torn up lately, but I think I'm finally attempting to move on from this. I'm going to start going back to lunch this week--I think it would be best to face the issue head-on rather than how I have been...avoiding it. Sooner or later, I have to admit to myself that my friend has moved on and this is probably the best way to do it. I don't know that I will ask him to do things with just me and him anymore--not because I don't want to be his friend, but because his girlfriend would probably end up tagging along. She tags along with his other friend and unlike her, I do not have a boyfriend and being someone's third wheel is not my type of fun. Therefore, I think that we can have group events together amongst all my friends and that way, if she's there, it won't be so bad. I figure if he really wants to hang out with me, he'll make an effort.

I'm really scared though. I just stopped praying one day about getting the love of my life--first, it was because I had it. My friend really made me happy once and now that it's that time of year again, a lot of those memories are rushing back and I wish I would have enjoyed that time more than I did. Second, I just don't know that I'll get it. I say I want to be alone, because I am really hurt--it upsets me to think of being with someone else, because I wonder if they will like me and then change their feelings. It seems that I have been friend-zoned since I was a child and I wasn't open to anyone. This experience was the first for me--it did allow me to open up and make a new friend, but I was also burned pretty bad.

I want someone to love me and be someone I can love back--someone who loves the Lord and who will treat me special and make me feel the way I used to with my friend. I'm scared of being used because I feel so vunerable--but at the same time, I don't want to be lonely forever. I'm pretty--smart, kind--somewhat conceited (lol..a little humor)...I just wish God would send me the person I am supposed to be with. I used to pray for it every night--now I'm scared to ask.

Father...whisper these words to this kind young woman...My sweet girl...here is what I would suggest...pray that God will send you your Basheart...this is a Hebrew word that means your split-apart. The person who when God envisioned you at the foundation of the world...he made for you and only for you...he is the other half of you. You are very young...you will meet many young men before the one God has for you is sent to you. I have come to believe it is so that when he arrives you will have enough experience to recognize him and truly appreciate why he is the one. There is nothing to fear...you are feeling the pain...but the loss is really this young man's. I have never met you but I see your Spirit...the sweetness of it...and your purity of heart...these are extremely great gifts and rare in our world today. For now open your mind to simply start dating. Go to a movie...have dinner...enjoy a museum or a picnic in the park...go tailgating at the football game...just enjoy...love will come and when it does...you will be taken by wonderous surprise...and most of all be healed from this experience and ready to both receive it and give it! Know that you are loved by the Father and the people of God!!! In Jesus name...Amen!

Dear Havenly Father The Kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven forgive us are sin as we for give are debtor and lead us not into temptiation but deliver us from evil Please answer this person prayer acord to your will and bless there life Lord and we give you all the priase honor and glory to whom all power belong. IN JESUS NAME I PRAY AMEN

adoring1 Wrote:Father...whisper these words to this kind young woman...My sweet girl...here is what I would suggest...pray that God will send you your Basheart...this is a Hebrew word that means your split-apart. The person who when God envisioned you at the foundation of the world...he made for you and only for you...he is the other half of you. You are very young...you will meet many young men before the one God has for you is sent to you. I have come to believe it is so that when he arrives you will have enough experience to recognize him and truly appreciate why he is the one. There is nothing to fear...you are feeling the pain...but the loss is really this young man's. I have never met you but I see your Spirit...the sweetness of it...and your purity of heart...these are extremely great gifts and rare in our world today. For now open your mind to simply start dating. Go to a movie...have dinner...enjoy a museum or a picnic in the park...go tailgating at the football game...just enjoy...love will come and when it does...you will be taken by wonderous surprise...and most of all be healed from this experience and ready to both receive it and give it! Know that you are loved by the Father and the people of God!!! In Jesus name...Amen!

Both times that I've read this it brought tears to my eyes. It really touches me. This weekend and today has been the first time that I really let everything go and accepted it as it is--that I've truly thought about how immature my friend is. He's not a bad person, but I could never be with him the way he is--being extremely late, blowing off school or friends (although it's not all the time, it's enough to be hurt when it does happen)--He's got messed up priorities. I really hope he gets saved...I still don't want him to go to hell, but this is the first time I've actually tried to heal. I wonder why I didn't do this sooner. I feel much better not worrying about being with him--but I still have my hurts.

I just don't want to get hurt like this again--have someone who really likes me come into my life and then get scared--I believe that was the case here and although it's not without reason (I probably would have been really hurt in a relationship with this man, because of how he is--it would be more frustrating than to deal with it simply as his friend) I still don't want it to happen again. I hate being alone--it seems that's what I've had up until this little experience. I wish I could have back the feeling that I used to have from my friend of being important and feeling loved (not from him--I'm saying it would be nice to be in a relationship).

My conviction is not to get into a relationship with people I don't know--at least not somewhat. Obviously, you cannot know someone completely otherwise you wouldn't date. lol I don't really go out with many guys--either before or after...in fact, I think I went out with one other guy and I friend-zoned him, because I didn't like him any more than that. I wouldn't mind going to the movies or having dinner, but no one really asks me. I don't know why. Men will be polite--open doors and what not, but I rarely get propositioned--in fact, I would say that I really don't. I don't know why. I'm pretty, smart, fun--I don't know what kind of air I put on that turns men away. I mean, obviously being around my friend probably doesn't helop, but I'm not with him all the time and that was what it was like before I met him too.

I just wish the Lord would send me the right person--In the bible that's what He did--like the story of Esther is so incredibly sweet as well as Ruth. I want a strong man of God in my life and I just don't know where to find him. And--I haven't been the best in the situation. I know there has been a time or two that I've gotten mad at God and should not have been and I wonder if my stay in the wilderness will be prolonged because of it.

I mean, my pastor said to me once how he praying that God would send me a godly man someday and it about sent me into tears right there. I want that more than anything--family is what matters to me. But, I've been trying to focus on my studies..trying to get through school and the hurt I've had.

I'm sorry for going off on a tagent. I know that you may not have wanted to hear that. I guess that's why I am scared. I don't want every man I meet to be the wrong choice--I don't want the next time to be worse than this. I mean, at least I can be thankful for gaining a friend and that he never used me physically--he never bullied me or told him that I wasn't good enough. He cares about me, even if he doesn't always show it. He is my friend. I don't want the next guy to be a worse situation. I could barely handle this--and I was never cheated on or abused...it's not a horror story. I don't want that.

I just wish that I was closer to the love of my life than I thought.

adoring1 Wrote:Father...whisper these words to this kind young woman...My sweet girl...here is what I would suggest...pray that God will send you your Basheart...this is a Hebrew word that means your split-apart. The person who when God envisioned you at the foundation of the world...he made for you and only for you...he is the other half of you. You are very young...you will meet many young men before the one God has for you is sent to you. I have come to believe it is so that when he arrives you will have enough experience to recognize him and truly appreciate why he is the one. There is nothing to fear...you are feeling the pain...but the loss is really this young man's. I have never met you but I see your Spirit...the sweetness of it...and your purity of heart...these are extremely great gifts and rare in our world today. For now open your mind to simply start dating. Go to a movie...have dinner...enjoy a museum or a picnic in the park...go tailgating at the football game...just enjoy...love will come and when it does...you will be taken by wonderous surprise...and most of all be healed from this experience and ready to both receive it and give it! Know that you are loved by the Father and the people of God!!! In Jesus name...Amen!

Sorry...I forgot to get around my rant--I did want to thank you though. Like I said, your words were encouraging, in spite of what I'm feeling. I thank you for taking the time to pray for me--for someone you do not know. It takes courage and I respect who you are. Thank you for letting the Lord use you to help me in my time of need.

Father, bring to this young woman male friends that she may ask to join her other friends when they do group activities...let her do so that she may begin to enjoy her life again. Let these new friendships grow into a vibrant social life so that she may develop experience in dating and in using the Christian dating model...that when her Basheart appears she will know how to date within your plan and be prepared in heart and soul to begin a new phase of her journey. In Jesus name...Amen!

Dear Lord,

I thank you for this situation. I has revealed a lot of things I needed to change in my life. I now realize the importance of having You in the center of any relationship--especially a romantic one. I see the importance of Your presence in my life and Your provision. I pray that You would lead the right man to me--that I would not be lonely long. I ask that You would send the person who You would have me to be with and that I would be led out of any temptation to be with anyone less than that. I ask that You would continue to heal my heart--it is far from put back together, but I know that You have started the process in me and I thank You for a newfound peace in my life.

I ask that I be a witness that I would represent Christ and that His light would shine through me to my group of friends so that one day they would come to You in faith for their salvation. I know that what You take away You replace with Your very best and I pray Lord that I would receive that person who is meant to be--the man who You would have to be in my life, who is my true spiritual soulmate. I pray that You would make it clear who this person is and that You would send him soon. I pray that together we would be witnesses together, who would glorify Your name and who would win souls for You--not in our glory, but in Yours.

I ask that my waiting would not be long--that he would come much sooner than I believe. I ask that the time I am alone would be as grains of sand in an hourglass--quick, but rich in living. I pray that he would be saved and someone who can be more than simply a partner, but a spiritual leader in our home. I ask that he would be compassionate, a man after Your heart, and someone who will exalt You. I pray that I would feel what I used to feel--to feel important, cherished, loved and I ask that I would return those emotions.

I ask that no one else would come but him--I ask that no one would be sent my way who would potentially damage my heart, who would lead me away from Your will, or who would not be of Your will. I ask that You show me where to go, who to talk to--please. I don't wish to remain single anymore, if it is Your will. I ask that You would send someone soon--the man You want me to have.

I thank You for all the blessings You have given to me in this storm and I pray that I would see an answer to prayer soon. In Christ's name I pray. Amen.

Father God, this young woman is asking from her heart for you to send her the one you have for her and she asks for it very soon. Father I ask that you complete her healing first as maturity has taught me that to be able to truly engage in loving some one...one must be strong and complete within oneself. Father heal her heart while you finish preparing the one you have for her. When you know Father that this woman is ready and that the young man is also please move in a mighty way to bring them together. Let him be all that she asks and more...let him be wise Father in the ways of a woman's heart that he would hold it in his hands with reverence for the gift that you have given him and cherish it always. Give this woman pleasant days that are useful in preparing her for the blessing that you will bring and give her wisdom to recognize him when he comes. In Jesus name...Amen!