Lord God, you are my friend and my intimate, I trust you with my heart oh Lord.
I am wondering whether or not I did the right thing with HC. Lord, I know that you are not in a rush and perhaps there's a lot of things that you want to do or show me before things proceed Lord, one of them is a new place to live for sure. However, it's kinda weird cause I don't want to fall for an idea without any solid confirmation here. I am took a chance and I have faith but it's still kind of lonely here Lord. Talk to me, I promise that I am going to do my best to think and evaluate what I see before I react.
Father God, call me crazy but I think that well I am not sure. Do you want me to be the strong one here, I have taken the initiative but I have yet to get a response it's been 6 months. Did I offend you or him? I keep seeing the guy and I don't know how to reach out to him but I took a chance and he won't so what should I think or feel. Lord, I am only human here I trust you with this and it's awkward and I my hard can't afford anymore MK or AH episodes and maybe he had his own painful episodes and has grown more afraid. If you show me I will keep trying but you have to stay constant with me and make them clear, on point and accurate I don't wont to scare him away I want to draw him in and show him that it's a gift from you. I want you to live between us, Lord it has been a while and I have grown and I am thankful, and I accept that nothing is traditional about me and you so it's OK.
I just want some type of feed back so how do I go about this. What if you show me him mom and dad, his siblings, something that I can share with him to show that it could only come from you and that's the only way I would know about it. I don't want it to seem that I am putting him in an awkward position and maybe he is seeing it as contradictory to what they are teaching but I know what I feel which was brought on by what I saw and I saw how he feels it's getting there with both of us starting something that's incredibly hard.
Lord, I love the husband that you promised for he is awesome and perfect but Lord I am only human Lord. HLwywmmianb huh, Lord please make way for us Lord, we don't have much time left Lord we want to be happy and in Love. Please please in the name of Jesus-Christ of Nazareth please please mercy Lord mercy Lord please let us be. I waited for you and suffered and took all that insult and loneliness because of you oh God please mercy please mercy in the name of Jesus-Christ please mercy let us be oh God please mercy I have faith that it is he that you promised me. Please please please mercy by grace please infinite grace oh God please I wait for I know through Christ I already have a yes and you promised and your word is eternal.
Lord, I need a new place to live I have faith that you will send me a loan approval this week so that I can start looking for a home. Father, God we desperately need to move please intervene and speed up the process. Lord, please speed up the process for us please get us out of this place for I have faith that you have already chosen the best home in the perfect area for us oh Lord please get us to a much much better place in the name of the blood of Jesus.
Lord, I thank for my mom's job and I pray that she makes more than enough for all of her needs including her retirement. Please renew my mom's body make her young and strong again oh Lord, please allow her to live with true joy and happiness and a real confident smile. Lord, our hearts can't take no more please forgive us for our mistakes please don't let us pay for it for the rest of our lives please oh great God of mercy. Please mommy's life please in Jesus' name please mercy for her. Please.
Father, we need a buyer Lord. I am not sure of what to make of the situation but it's like everyone wants to lie and cheat us, lie to us and take advantage of us. Oh Lord please send some honest God fearing people in our lives and path please we have lost so much.
Lord, please take charge of our future retirement home project in your hand and with importance and urgency please.
Please change my brothers and nephews into true God fearing men of God I have faith that you will.
In Jesus' name - Amen
