TO THOSE WHO HAVE HEARTS OF GOLD:

I am a 27 year old Filipina woman. I am a mother of a very beautiful, very smart and healthy 1 year old baby. His father is an AMERICAN from NEW YORK but never supported me and my baby.

I DO NOT have any regrets in having my baby and in fact I feel very blessed to have him in my life. He is the most wonderful little boy, he is giving me so much joy and he is the best thing that happened to me.

The thing is the father is not man enough to take the responsibility and that he never supported us. He left the Philippines and that was the time I learned that I was pregnant. I never thought of not continuing my pregnancy and never hated myself for having him even though I knew from the start that the father will never support us. As they say, being a single mom is a choice.

I know that I have made a mistake by being careless, but I NEVER thought my baby is made by accident. I want to make up on him when he grows up and make him feel that even though he has no real father he is the best blessing I've ever had.

There are so many changes in my life since I have my baby. I became even stronger and determined. MY baby gave me more reason to live in this world. I never stopped working even before I was about to give birth, even though I struggled so much for being pregnant, I never gave up on me and my baby. My family never learned about my situation and it was only when I gave birth that I called them up and told them I just gave birth. (My family lives up North which is not near where I am staying so they don?t know what?s happening) I never told them what was going on (even until now) that the father is not supporting us. I never asked help from them even though I was really in need especially when I was about to give birth. I am very grateful that I have friends who supported me in many ways. They have been with me all the way.

Now that my baby is turning 1 in a week?s time, I am quite worried about his future because I am not very sure if I could give him the best education that I wish I could because life here in the Philippines is not easy. The feeling I have when I watch him sleep is overwhelming. I'm always praying to God that He will always guide him and will always be with him. I always pray that he will grow up to be a very good person. He is an a sweet angel to me. I'm always thinking about his future. His studies. I want to give him the best education. The best things in life. I can say that I am the most patient mother in the whole world. I am giving him the love that his father can not give.

This is the reason why I thought I would write to some people and hope that someone out there would help me build a good future for my baby. I know there are good hearted people that would want to help us.

I?m also wondering if someone could help me get a legal advice from a US lawyer on how to get a support from my son?s American father. But this is my last option though, if he doesn?t want to support my baby's future education and there is other option, I wont force him. I will let God punish him for turning his back from my baby.

PS: to those people who might give me a negative feedback. Please put on the subject line that you are sending me a negative feedback so I won?t bother reading it. I am tired of all the people who don?t understand my feeling. Who misinterpret of what I am saying. If you think this is some kind of a scam from someone. I can show you proof about my identity. Every information about me.

If you know anyone who may want to help me with 1. My baby?s future education. 2. A free legal and assistance from a US lawyer please, please, please pass it on.

I pray that this will work and that God will make a way.

Sincerely,
Florence Gayagay

Dear Florence, I feel proud that God has blessed your son with the most wonderful mother, in fact an angel in disguise. I'm so proud of your motherhood. I extend my prayers for your well being, your happiness, your joy (Son). I pray that God would heed your prayers and offer divine assistance. Even though i'm not able to help you in the way you have asked, my prayers will be there and this is the best help i can do. I pray that a soul who could help you would contact you soon and deliver the required justice in time. I pray that you and your son be protected by the angels from any harm that may come. Have faith in the lord as he never fails.