I have been married for almost two years, and today my husband has admited that he does not call Christ his own. For the last eight months or so he has denied the authenticity of the Bible, and bit by bit things have gone from wonderful to vile in our spiritual life and our marriage. He denies demons, and thusly does not understand where his sudden 180 in faith came from. Since his denial of the Word of God I have fallen under such demonic attack that any and every aspect of my life has bit hit (from money, to health, to litteral hands-on demonic attack). I am terrified for my husband, and my faith is being tried like ever before. I am so afraid that God will leave him to be counted among the "goats" that it caused me to see just how little faith I have in God fulfilling His own promise that He will complete every work He has begun. We were engaged and married not long after he was saved, and still believe that timing to be God's and not our own, but I am at a point to where I am doubting even the most basic things that God has spoken to me. When he got saved I could not find anyone willing to disciple him, since he is a towboater and is gone every other month traveling the Mississippi delivering barge's, away from churches, Christians, godly council, and surrounded by some of satan's strongest players much of the time. Please believe I tried to find a man of God willing to work with him, but it is all too appearent that I did not try hard enough in this matter, for one could have been found. I know God uses the strangest things to bring His glory, and I know that no matter how this turns out when Marshall gets to finally meet his Creator face to face, God has His hand arround the situation. I find it hard to believe this, though. I cannot find it in me to trust the Lord in this, and it shames me.
God, in all His wisdom, calls for the prayers of His people, as a part of the means to an end, and so I beg of you that you will pray for my husband, Marshall Collins, and that if you are not too burdened, to ask others to do the same. His Word promises that when two or more come together He is there, and so I am doing my best to take refuge in this.
Be assured, there are many Christians here praying for him, but I am searching out as many as possible to pray for him, in hopes that God will hear our call.

Please forgive the burden I have asked you to bare, and know that I am truly grateful for whatever sacrifice you lay towards this matter. Your ministry is in our prayers, and I pray that the work done there continues to grow and prosper in it's reach to the world.

With much thanks,
your sister in Christ,
Claire Collins