I feel like I'm in a dark place right now in my life, and the scary part is that I have overcome so many harder obstacles. I just don't know anything anymore, and the only place that I can think to come is amongst believers.

I'm very close to losing the love of my life, because of my sins in the past of lust and greed. I've prayed on the matter, and asked God to reveal a path to me. Just when I think that I should move on, a sign is placed before me, a gesture or small victory, I suppose,that kept my faith from going astray. But an obstacle is set between me and her, and I'm hurting, even though it has been almost a year since our actual separation.

I'm young, 28 yrs old, but I feel like I am drifting away from youth aspirations of chasing alcohol and women. I have separated from my former friends, and I have grown accustomed to loving my ex-girl, as my BEST FRIEND with the hopes that we could grow again. Neither of us have moved on with other lovers, we date each other, and celebrate like we are together. But a new job may pull her away from me into a new state and city. I'm confused, as my heart tells me that I love her and want marriage to be our future, but my mind says to bid her farewell.

Maybe I'm just facing an obstacle that I cannot handle and need to lean on GOD for help, but right now I feel beaten.

I feel like I am losing in life, as I watch my Unapologetic Atheist Cousin scam my family, and continue to succeed. He's buying a house, Living with 2 women that seem to be committed to him, and he curses on God like he doesn't need GOD.

While I continue to try my hardest to be a faithful servant to the Lord. It hurts to be me right now.

My Job.
My struggles to graduate from school.
My ex-girl.
My Life.

It just hurts, and I don't know what to do.

If I didn't have God, I think I would have given in and taken my life by now.

Just pray for Terrel (ME) if you can.

This post was last modified: 03-09-2010 11:19 AM by admin.

Loving Father, please comfort Terrel and reassure him of your love for him. Help him to discern the right path to take with his ex-girlfriend. Help him with his struggles to finish school. Reassure him that following you as your servant will reap its eternal rewards while much that looks good now will pass away. In the name of Jesus, according to your will, amen.