I feel that I still need prayers for these dreams and desires of mine to be fulfilled. What had happened yesterday was yet another trial and tribulation to where my desires lie in my heart. This morning as I was waking up, I felt that I was in a bind... like hardly any of them will be fulfilled instead of ALL to be fulfilled as I was praying for. The night before last, I had a phrase show up in my dream that says "Shoot for the moon". Ever since then I created a background for my computer screen that says that phrase, so every time I log on to my laptop, that phrase shall give me a constant reminder to keep aiming high and keeping my dreams closer. I want all of my dreams to be fulfilled, and to not let one go unfulfilled or unanswered. With God, ANYTHING is possible and even the hardest of dreams to conquer will be rewarded onto me. Here are the dreams and desires that I want to become reality:
-Mom to stop smoking
-Dad to be completely healthy from all health problems
-(Ex)boyfriend and I to reunite our relationship and eventually turn it into marriage like in the dream I had on August 3rd.
-Get a kitten or two
-To go to Japan (and hopefully get a summer home there)
-Gain weight (muscle) (I want to gain 35 pounds at least to be a healthy 125; I am 85 lbs., and have muscle tone as well)
-For all of us (mom, dad, myself, and (ex)boyfriend and perhaps the kittens) to be one big happy and healthy family and be together as in-laws, husbands and wives and family.
This morning, I keep having some bad thoughts, about my dreams being all for naught that that they are pointless to have. That they are too hard for me to go for... and a bad thought that God will not fulfill my dreams. Forgive me God for that thought... I know that You have the power to fulfill all of my dreams. Satan just tries to make things harder, making more trials and tribulations come between me and my hopes and dreams. These are not selfish dreams... these desires are for reconciliation and glory of a 'broken' family, and I desire for it to come together again 100-fold. I'm shooting the moon with all of these dreams, as they are pretty big dreams to come by, especially at my age.
Please, My God... please do not let one dream go unfulfilled or unanswered... with You, anything is possible... These dreams mean a lot to me... Oh yes, they mean everything to me, as these dreams are what I want in my life... and they are very big indeed, but it is what I desire to have and I desire for ALL of them to happen. Sometimes, I feel like I'm in a rut when it comes to my dreams... but that's making the Devil think he has won over my thoughts and hopes. God, keep me going strong through my dreams, as I want all to be rewarded and fulfilled and not let one pass me by or go unfulfilled. These dreams mean a lot to me... otherwise, I would not be asking You for all of these dreams and desires to become reality 100-fold. You gave me the phrase "Shoot for the moon" in a dream where I was asleep, and Lord, I am doing as so. Shoot for the moon, keep my dreams closer, and to trust in You, because I know You can work miracles. I pray that this year that most, if not all, of these dreams will come true in a flash, because You have the power to make it happen. This year started in a downhill, especially when I turned 19. But God, YOU can make my year end on a super high note, as whereas most, if not all, of these dreams of mine will become reality again. "Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall grant you the desires of your heart." PSALM 37:4
That scripture is one that is driving me hard to continue to work on and push on to the desires of my heart, because I know I cannot do this by myself. I can't even come close to make these dream real on my own. I need You, God. Please help me as to grant ALL of these dreams of mine. Please, if you can, make these dreams real by the end of 2010 and make this year end on a high note, whence it had started in a bad one. Prayer warriors, I thank you for praying for me and for my situations thus far, and I feel that I need more love and support and prayers from you guys, so God can hear not only my, but your cries, in order for these huge miracles to come to me by the end of this year, if possible. Even if they do not become real by the end of this year, that does NOT mean I will stop going for all of these dreams and praying for these desires to come true. Thank You, God for giving me these dreams and the strength for me to keep going strong on these dreams. Thank You for helping me realize when Satan strikes when it comes to these dreams of mine. I will not give up on either of these dreams. I am confident in myself, and in my Almighty God and His Son, Christ Jesus, for all of these desires of mine to be rewarded 100-fold, 1000-fold, 10000-fold, and more. In Jesus Name I pray! Amen.