Adoring thank you for the insight. Your so right about the fear. What has happened is done, There is no sence in looking back. I prayed and meditated for a very long time this morning. Once done I arose with with a new sence of self confidence in myself and the Lord. I do feel rejected as you say. But I do know that the Lord Jesus has not rejected me. He is the one true man in my life who loves me as a wife, mother and christian. I need to let my fear go so I may have a voice to speak out against those who try to stop me in my fight for my son and those who try to swade me from my faith and path that Jesus has paid so dearly for me to go down. I let my anxousness get the best of me last night. I have sined in having doubts but have prayed for forgiveness so those fear and doubts will be pushed aside. The lord I see knows that I am the mother of my son and will see that victory comes my way. I truly believe that and I know that I cannot let evil get into my head and thoughts. I have to be stronger! I turn to the Lord to give me the strength and to continue holding me up to make me even stronger to prevail against my enemys. In doing so I pray for him to help this other woman and my husband. Thank you for the insight Adoring I just needed your strengh too this morning I beleive.

Dear Lord,

new beginnings...you are so welcome...you are in my prayers night and day. There are very few things that we can know for certain in this life...but one thing we can...if we model our lives our response to trials after the life of the Savior...there is no battle that we cannot win! Be strong in the Lord and the power of his might! In Jesus name...Amen!

Adoring, Is there any scriptures that you can help me with to read up on. You say you know how I feel and asked what the true worries of my heart are. They are that I am going to loose my son. I do feel very betrayed but my main focus is my faith and continueing to let go of the control. I know I need to put more heart and soul in to do this. Anything you can help me with would be great. I know I have lots of studying to do.

Matthew 10:26 -31 deals with our fears...they are not really long...I would start there and begin memorizing them...I would also memorize Psalm 23...The Lord is my shepherd...and just read Psalm 73...repetitively...I think you will find it very enlightening...God sees and knows what these kinds of folks do...let me know what your thoughts on God's message in this Psalm. Stay strong New Beginnings...

It will also help to meditate on Psalm 123

1- Unto thee lift I up mine eyes, O thou that dwellest in the heavens.
2- Behold, as the eyes of servants look unto the hand of their masters, and as the eyes of a maiden unto the hand of her mistress; so our eyes wait upon the LORD our God, until that he have mercy upon us.
3- Have mercy upon us, O LORD, have mercy upon us: for we are exceedingly filled with contempt.
4- Our soul is exceedingly filled with the scorning of those that are at ease, and with the contempt of the proud.

So much has happend over this weekend. My husband after having been caught last week is still denying everything. He again has chosen to take the other woman over his family and will not admit the truth. But then that does not really matter cause the lord had revieled the truth. I know that the only person my husband is responsable for answering to is the Lord. But I do feel like the Lord reveiled this to help us both move forward in to trying to come to an agreement on custody. After a 45 minute conversation with my husband we actually came to an agreement on custody and our divorce. I have prayed so long and hard for this so we do not have to go to court and drag our son through even more. The Lord answered my prayers and I am so thankful. We are supposed to speak with the lawyers today to let them know that we have come to an agreement. Please pray that he does not change his mind. The lord is slowly revealing the path that he wants for my life. I have laid down my control and given into the Lord my whole mind, body and soul. Please pray for me to continue to move forward even though the pain is still so fresh. I need to move on and am deeply still trying to do that. Please pray for my husband to open his heart and to let the Lord. My husband needs the Lord so much right now. He has strayed so far from the good person he truly is. I know that restoration of my marriage may not be in God's plan for us but I do truly believe that my huband, even though he has made some wrong choices, is a good person. He just needs to find himself again.

Dear Lord,

I come to you with great thanks for this weekend. I prayed for u to show me the path that you would like me to take and I beleive by my husband agreeing to settle on is moving towards your will for us. I cannot express into words how much I love you and am so thankful for this. I pray that you will continue to give me streangth and guidance so we may continue to move forward with your plans. I know that my husband, who has been filled with greed, lust and the devil for so long needs you more then ever right now. Please take your hand and place it upon his shoulder so he may feel your presence. Please continue to fill his heart and mind of imiages of his family that he has so willinly cast aside so he may see the errors of his way and turn to you lord. I pray not for the restoration of my marriage but the restoration of you to him lord. If the restoration of our marriage is in your plans I will waite patiently for that to reveal itself but most important is for my husband to be right with you Lord before. Please continue to guide us to do as you see.

Amen

Father, that this man continues to lie about this other woman in his life is evidence of how far gone he is in his mind. He has been caught, his child has shared this information...and yet he still lives the lie. Father, in your mercy...bind the demonic presence upon him that he may see how far he has fallen. Father thank you for this agreement that has been drafted. Let this husband stand behind it and keep it. Thank you for the strength of newbeginings. Let her continue to stand for her child and for you Father. Keep her close to you and walking in your word. Thank you that she remains in a state of surrender that despite the circumstances she can know your peace. Let her move forward in her life with a confidence of your presence and guidance. In Jesus name...Amen!

Papers going to the lawyer tomorrow for approval of my husband. Please PRAY that he sign/agrees and we can move on...

Father, in your mercy and wisdom, I come asking that the papers that establish the formal agreement on custody issues for newbeginings child be signed off on without hesitation by this husband. Father, I ask that he would honor his word...and that you would ensure that he does. Let there be no changing of mind and no obstacle to this signing. In Jesus name...Amen!

Im still so confused. I know in my heart that I am supposed to let go and move on at this moment. But its still so hard to try to stop loving someone that you dearly do even these times. I truly do believe that the lord has shown me that my husband is not right for me at this moment. But it still hurts so much. I honestly just want to move forward and sign the agreed apon papers so we can start to hopefully heal what is left of our realtionship so we can coparent. Am I wrong for feeling confused still even though I truly believe that the Lord wants me to let go. How can you just stop loving someone after 11 years. After everything he has done to try to "throw me away" I still love him.

Dear Lord,

I truly do beleive that this arangment that we were able to come to is your blessing. It will not only help us to both be finacially able to support our son but will help both of us move forward with your visions of our future. I am so blessed and thankful that you heard my prayers for this agreement. PLese continue to help my husband to move forward without hesitation in singing the agreement this week. I continue to be confused about so much. Please help me to get some clarity in what you truly want for me. I am trying to let go. I know that you are the one who will take care of us no matter what. Please continue to help my husband in his struggles with lust and resentment. Even though the past few days have been civil he needs you more than ever. Please wrap your arms around him and hold him lord as you have done me so many times. Please continue to fill his heart/ dreams/mind with visions of me and his son as a family so that even if we are not ment to be whole again that he may use that as strength to do the right thing and come to you. He is so lost. Please continue to push this other woman away from him and my family. She has done nothing but make the devil even more seeded in my husband. Dear Lord you are the one and only and I continue to give myself to you without questions and with whole trust. Thank you for your guidance

Amen